To Mount The Scaffold

隔日补记：

电工系的同学很快猜出了是谁，发来这个链接。每年还来复旦招人。

两相对照，更添感叹，抑或我的阅历使我远不足以感叹全部可以感叹的。如果你链到上文那个气质近于“寄意寒星荃不察”的《半瓶诗铺》页面，然后暴光于下面这个躬逢技术盛世的搜狐IT页面，或许会微微像我这样浅薄而惆怅地想到，今天我们熟稔的,被一种奇怪的社会力量所宰制的标准成功人士面目和话语下，也许蜿蜒着一条条只有自己的脚印才懂得的的砺练心路。

http://it.sohu.com/20081028/n260296123.shtml

张峥，2002年加入微软亚洲研究院多媒体组,目前是微软亚洲研究院副院长，负责系统和网络研究领域。1984年就读于复旦大学电子工程系；1987年作为复旦大学首批本科跳级的13名学生之一进入研究生课程；1990年赴美国德州大学达拉斯分校留学；1992年获硕士学位后，于1993年春转至伊利诺思香槟分校求学，并于1996年秋获得博士学位。 此后，张铮一直在惠普中央实验室工作,其研究领域涉及高性能超级计算机系统结构和大规模分布式系统。张峥也是网络杂志 <<新语丝>> 和 << 国风>> 的创办人之一，以竹人”为笔名主持编辑<<海外留学生年度诗选>>首二卷， 并曾在 <<国风>>主持 <<艺廊>> 及 <<半瓶诗铺>> 专栏。

 今天蜷在家里,在豆瓣上发现Alexandria Quartet, 幸好学校图书馆歇业且普通外借库里查无此书,我的邪念才得以收敛

很久以前看过的一个片段, 和我中意的Greene一样能把旁白写出一种独特而流利的悲伤：

I want them to live again to the point where pain becomes art....

These are the moments which possess the writer, not the lover, and which live on perpetually.

This intimacy should go no further, for we have already exhausted all its possibilities in our respective imaginations: and what we shall end by discovering, behind the darkly woven colours of sensuality, will be a friendship so profound that we shall become bondmen forever. It was, if you like, the flirtation of minds permaturely exhausted by experience which seemed so much more dangerous than a love founded in sexual attraction. (这段即是说in yying we unite么 ）

The loved object is simply one that has shared an experience at the same moment of time, narcissistically; and the desire to be near the beloved object is at first not due to the idea of possessing it, but simply to let the two experiences compare themselves, like reflections in different mirrors. All this may precede the first look, kiss, or touch; precede ambition, pride or envy; precede the first declarations which mark the turning point--for from here love degenerates into habit, possession, and back to loneliness.

I hunt everywhere for a life that is worth living. Perhaps if I could die or go mad it would provide a focus for all the feelings I have which find no proper outlet....  What I lack of heart I make up in soul.

Real people can only exist in the imagination of an artist strong enough to contain them and give them form. Life, the raw material, is only lived in potentia until the artist deploys it in his work.

She simply and magnificently is; we have to put up with her, like original sin.  (这句很绝.)

I felt like answering himin the words of the dying Amr:"I feel as if heaven lay close upon the earth and I between them both, breathing through the eye of a needle."

We are all hunting for rational reasons for believing in the absurd.

Of all of us he is the most happy in a way because he has no preconceived idea of what he wants in return for his love. And to love in such an unpremediated way is something that most peple have to re-learn after fifty. Children have it. So has he.

这样的片段不宜百看 稍一闪失 把亦得亦失 亦失亦得的精妙当成了"行止于思"的借口 那就酸了